Hallelujah we are free to struggle, but we’re not struggling to be free.
And what a beautiful truth it is.
She’s so right it pretty much hurts.
I’m scared. Fill me up with Your love and strength and confidence because right now, I’m absolutely terrified. And I know You ultimately don’t care about my uncomfortableness—You’re much bigger than that. Help me to not be overwhelmed right now by my insecurities and self doubt and all I have to do. Lord help me to place my trust in You in everything and to remember to thank You for every moment you’ve blessed me with. Thank You for getting me as far as You have, because I know for sure it is not just on my own efforts. Lord, let me remember that You are with me. Your spirit is in me and even though I may not know what You are doing or where You are taking me, I know who You are and I pray that I rest in that. Thank You for loving me through my humanness.
In Your name I pray, Amen.
I need to write more.
So this is me regurgitating things I have spent weeks digesting. I am still lost, but taking it day by day. I realize I’ve spent too much time waiting for a sign for me to move towards something but you know what? Screw it, I’m going to move. So I’m moving. Slowly, but semi-surely. I just feel like everyone around me is making plans, building a future, and I’m stuck in limbo trying to decide whether or not to lay foundations for things I don’t even know. But I guess what I do know is that I am loved and in love and that’s enough for me to keep going. I need to stop wallowing in my own tiredness and anxiety and look to God to fill me up. Human effort is limited and runs out easily, as I’ve learned. God’s love and strength and energy and everything simply doesn’t. God is eternal in every aspect and to think I can get by on my own is just so…silly. And human.
I think my goal for each day should be growth, whether it be my interactions with other people, my work ethic, my relationship with God, just some small personal victory. And then no matter how bad the day is, it won’t have been for nothing. Long term goals freak me out. But if I reach the everyday short term goals, they should come together in the long term right?
Anyways, today was a good day.
Rend Collective Experiment
“10,000 Reasons (Bless the Lord)”
Sing like never before
Oh my soul
I’ll worship Your Holy Name.
All of your flaws and all of my flaws
When they have been exhumed
We’ll see that we need them to be who we are
Without them we’d be doomed
I think if we are all honest with ourselves, sometimes we have our own moments where we find ourselves discontented with who we are, where we are, what we’re doing and what God is doing in our lives. Let me encourage you by saying these things:
Be content with who you are - First and foremost, there’s one truth that you need to remember. God is your Heavenly Eternal Father and you are His Son/Daughter. Everything that you are (talents, gifts, abilities, experiences, physical features etc.) came from Him because He created you exactly how He designed you to be for His glory and purpose for your life. To know that you are His Son/Daughter is the most comforting thing in this world. That’s where your identity lies and that’s all you need to know about yourself. Anything beyond that is a lie. Society, media, Hollywood don’t dictate who you are and what you should be. Be content with your identity in God.
Where you are - We find ourselves sometimes complaining because of where we are in life. You look at everyone and you wish you were some place else. So what if you’re stuck with your parents and going to a community college instead of a private university? So what if you’re stuck at this broken messy church instead of finding a new one and the list goes on. Not that what I mentioned are all bad but what if God wants you to be exactly where you are now but you don’t see His purpose for you because you’re complaining instead of seeking Him. Ever thought of that?
What you are doing - I love what Luke 16:10 says “If you are faithful in the little things then you will be faithful in the big things. This wisdom is so simple and yet some of us are having a hard time applying this truth into our lives. When someone gives you the opportunity to serve and lead whether as a volunteer or on staff, you have to be faithful in that area and work with such passion and heart. You can’t be working/serving halfheartedly and expect to be ‘promoted’. Brothers and Sister God can’t be mocked, what you sow that you will reap. If you are faithful with the small things then God will entrust you with the bigger things. Start small, stay faithful.
And what God is doing through you - At the end of the day, I encourage you stop and step back and just think through what God is doing in your life. You might be going through a tough time, but God is in that. You might be going through a joyful season, God is in that. Whatever season you’re in remember God is in that and He is doing something in and through you in that season of your life but you have to stop daily and ask God, ‘How can I make much of you today God? I’m ready for what you have for me today. I wanna bring glory and honor to your name.” Be content in everything and with everything that’s happening in your life. Stop complaining but instead keep praying and keep praising and keep abiding in Christ.
I am the vine and you are the branches, Those who remain in me and I in them will bear much fruit. Apart from me, you can do nothing. - John 15:1
Grace and love in Christ,
Definitely needed to hear this.
My thoughts exactly.
And it’s always been my mantra, “God’s got a plan for me,” but there are days when this isn’t enough to reassure me. Which is silly I know, the fact that the God of the world, heaven, universe knows my tiny little self’s plan and has it mapped out for me and I’m not comforted by it? But there are those days where I just really want a nudge in the right direction or some affirmation. Some tangible knowledge that I’m moving forward. And there are some days (a lot of days actually) where I just don’t feel that and it’s quite discouraging, not to mention terrifying. And my problem isn’t that I like too many things and am pulled in so many directions it’s difficult to choose, my problem is that I’m not being pulled at all. And I think that is the most frightening thing of all. But I’ll continue with my mantra “God’s got a plan for me,” but I think what I need to remember most is also that He has the perfect timing and I need to trust in it.